The Transition Process

The Transition Process

Hello! My name is Snow, and I am a trans woman. That’s something I only figured out a few years ago, and let me tell you, it was a very strange and confusing process. Before all of this, I’d never met a trans person. I didn’t know a thing about them, really. In fact, I was labouring under some horribly inaccurate presumptions.<br />As I started to learn more about trans people, about the community to which I would come to belong to, the community I would come to cherish, one particular thought stuck out to me. How the fuck does anybody learn about any of this shit?<br />Like, come on. It’s not complicated, just different. And it doesn’t need to be different. It just is, because wow mainstream media really doesn’t like us, does it?<br />Anyway, when I started to transition, I decided to document the process. I wrote about all the different things that happened, all the steps I had to go through, the things I was thinking at the time. I posted about all of it on my blog, because I wanted it to be a resource. For other possibly trans people, for people who wanted to understand a little more about trans people, or just for anyone interested.<br />I’m not sure how successful it was, in terms of how far I managed to reach with it. It didn’t really matter. It ended up being more of a journal, a chronicle of my experiences, and that in itself has value.<br />Now, I’ve collected it all here. At least, the first few years worth. Unedited, unchanged. This feels important to me, because not everything I wrote down across the journey still rings true today. There are things I would phrase different, opinions that have evolved, but most importantly, my state of mind is different.<br />Throughout a lot of this process, I was angry. I was frustrated and confused and hurt, and I think that comes through in the writing. That’s important. I can never capture those feelings again. Those are the true feelings I had at the time I was going through each of these stages, and that’s a part of the process. I feel like it’s important to preserve that as much as anything else. <br />So here you have it. The collected story of my journey through transitioning. I hope it’s interesting, and more than that, I hope it’s helpful.